Wednesday 29 February 2012
Tuesday 28 February 2012
5 Things That Make Me (:
here's how it works!
1) you make a list of five things that make you happy:
-Dogs/other animals
-Weightloss
-Music
-My friends
-Beaches
2) Hmmm ... notice that food isn't one of them?
Food doesn't bring happiness, so why eat it if you don't have to?!
1) you make a list of five things that make you happy:
-Dogs/other animals
-Weightloss
-Music
-My friends
-Beaches
2) Hmmm ... notice that food isn't one of them?
Food doesn't bring happiness, so why eat it if you don't have to?!
Monday 27 February 2012
thinspirational quotes .
Extra pounds are the penalty I pay for overdrawing my calories checkbook.
Food is the drug we all must quit
Like a plant, surely the body can be trained to exist on nothing - to take it's nourishment from the air.
If you have weight to lose, lose it. It wouldn't be there if you weren't supposed to lose it.
Every time I have the opportunity to eat, I have the strenght to refuse.
An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist - but ordinary's just not good enough today.
Know that the pain will pass... when it passes... you will be stronger, happier, and more aware.
Everything I want to be, I am, only buried under a layer of fat.
I can get thinner. I can cut it all off. I can wear low slung Levi's and crop tops and long straight dresses like willowy models, and I will grasp with the breathlessness of being airborn. I can fly and be free. I never realized how easy it was.
Within me lies a treasure hunt, when I lose- I win.
Dont give up what you want most for what you want at the moment
You aren't defeated when you lose, your only defeated when you quit!
Food is the drug we all must quit
Like a plant, surely the body can be trained to exist on nothing - to take it's nourishment from the air.
If you have weight to lose, lose it. It wouldn't be there if you weren't supposed to lose it.
Every time I have the opportunity to eat, I have the strenght to refuse.
An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist - but ordinary's just not good enough today.
Know that the pain will pass... when it passes... you will be stronger, happier, and more aware.
Everything I want to be, I am, only buried under a layer of fat.
I can get thinner. I can cut it all off. I can wear low slung Levi's and crop tops and long straight dresses like willowy models, and I will grasp with the breathlessness of being airborn. I can fly and be free. I never realized how easy it was.
Within me lies a treasure hunt, when I lose- I win.
Dont give up what you want most for what you want at the moment
You aren't defeated when you lose, your only defeated when you quit!
Sunday 26 February 2012
Fool proof diet & exercise plan !
Here is a plan I use for my food and exercise :
- on "optional"days I do the following :
winter - cross country skiing / skating
summer - swimming / hiking
spring & fall - depending on weather
anytime - running / aerobics+yoga+strength training using WiiFit Plus or going to the gym .
-anyday you may do more exercise than just what is assigned for that day
- exercise must be a total minumim of an hour daily .
- 1) means breakfast 2) means luch
- supper isn't included because it will change everyday . I eat supper with my family but only eat small portions of foods that aren't fatty or high in calories (everything I have except - negative calorie foods - for supper must be in a serving about the size of my fist of smaller . the whole -caloire filled- meal must be about the size of my two fist combined .
- all foods comsumed must be a brand wtih the lowest calories you can find , no matter what .
- you may have other food throughout the day but judge yourself accourdingly .
- try to make any snacks throughout the day either low calorie , no calorie , or negative calorie .
- do NOT eat fatty , greasey foods . Try healthy organic foods .
Sunday : (optional)
1) 1/2 cup fiber cereal with 1 cup or skim milk
2) salad - lettuce , tomato , any other negavite calorie veggietables , 1/2 cup mushrooms , 2 tablespoons (low calorie / low fat) salad dressing .
Monday : (running)
1) 1/2 cup vanilla yogurt and (negative calorie) fruit
2) 1 cup chicken bullion broth and five (low calorie / low fat) crackers .
Tuesday : (running)
1) 1 large bolied egg with 1 teaspoon of butter/margine
2) fruit salad - apple , orange , any other negative calorie fruits , 1/2 a banana .
Wednesday : (optional)
1) 1/2 cup fiber cereal with 1 cup or skim milk
2) salad - lettuce , tomato , any other negavite calorie veggietables , 1/2 cup mushrooms , 2 tablespoons (low calorie / low fat) salad dressing .
Thursday : (running)
1) 1/2 cup vanilla yogurt and (negative calorie) fruit
2) 1 cup chicken bullion broth and five (low calorie / low fat) crackers .
Friday : (running)
1) 1 large bolied egg with 1 teaspoon of butter/margine
2) fruit salad - apple , orange , any other negative calorie fruits , 1/2 a banana .
Saturday : (optional)
1) 1/2 cup fiber cereal with 1 cup or skim milk
2) salad - lettuce , tomato , any other negavite calorie veggietables , 1/2 cup mushrooms , 2 tablespoons (low calorie / low fat) salad dressing .
Also , apply these rules :
* 7-7 dinner ~ only eat between 7am and 7pm , nothing before and nothing after .
* eat breakfast between 7am-9am ~ your motabolism is fastest .
* don't eat anything within 3 hours before bed ~ it gives your body a chance to digest food better .
* do any extra exercise you can ~ walk insted of drive , take stairs insted of elevator/escialtor , etc .
- on "optional"days I do the following :
winter - cross country skiing / skating
summer - swimming / hiking
spring & fall - depending on weather
anytime - running / aerobics+yoga+strength training using WiiFit Plus or going to the gym .
-anyday you may do more exercise than just what is assigned for that day
- exercise must be a total minumim of an hour daily .
- 1) means breakfast 2) means luch
- supper isn't included because it will change everyday . I eat supper with my family but only eat small portions of foods that aren't fatty or high in calories (everything I have except - negative calorie foods - for supper must be in a serving about the size of my fist of smaller . the whole -caloire filled- meal must be about the size of my two fist combined .
- all foods comsumed must be a brand wtih the lowest calories you can find , no matter what .
- you may have other food throughout the day but judge yourself accourdingly .
- try to make any snacks throughout the day either low calorie , no calorie , or negative calorie .
- do NOT eat fatty , greasey foods . Try healthy organic foods .
Sunday : (optional)
1) 1/2 cup fiber cereal with 1 cup or skim milk
2) salad - lettuce , tomato , any other negavite calorie veggietables , 1/2 cup mushrooms , 2 tablespoons (low calorie / low fat) salad dressing .
Monday : (running)
1) 1/2 cup vanilla yogurt and (negative calorie) fruit
2) 1 cup chicken bullion broth and five (low calorie / low fat) crackers .
Tuesday : (running)
1) 1 large bolied egg with 1 teaspoon of butter/margine
2) fruit salad - apple , orange , any other negative calorie fruits , 1/2 a banana .
Wednesday : (optional)
1) 1/2 cup fiber cereal with 1 cup or skim milk
2) salad - lettuce , tomato , any other negavite calorie veggietables , 1/2 cup mushrooms , 2 tablespoons (low calorie / low fat) salad dressing .
Thursday : (running)
1) 1/2 cup vanilla yogurt and (negative calorie) fruit
2) 1 cup chicken bullion broth and five (low calorie / low fat) crackers .
Friday : (running)
1) 1 large bolied egg with 1 teaspoon of butter/margine
2) fruit salad - apple , orange , any other negative calorie fruits , 1/2 a banana .
Saturday : (optional)
1) 1/2 cup fiber cereal with 1 cup or skim milk
2) salad - lettuce , tomato , any other negavite calorie veggietables , 1/2 cup mushrooms , 2 tablespoons (low calorie / low fat) salad dressing .
Also , apply these rules :
* 7-7 dinner ~ only eat between 7am and 7pm , nothing before and nothing after .
* eat breakfast between 7am-9am ~ your motabolism is fastest .
* don't eat anything within 3 hours before bed ~ it gives your body a chance to digest food better .
* do any extra exercise you can ~ walk insted of drive , take stairs insted of elevator/escialtor , etc .
Saturday 25 February 2012
Friday 24 February 2012
Negative Calorie Foods .
This is a list of negative calorie foods . These foods use more calories to consume than are in them .
example : an average tomato will contain approximately 26 calories but it will take you 60 calories to digest it amounting in a 34 calorie loss each time you dine on it .
you can eat as many and as much of these foods as you want , and you'll atcually LOSE weight from it .
Thursday 23 February 2012
Be Thinspired !
This girl is sucking in as far as she can . Skinny right ?
Wrong . She eats like a pig and only eats junk food . Even she can lose weight .
Wednesday 22 February 2012
Tuesday 21 February 2012
Even more Thinspiration .
These people did it , so can you !
Thin is NOT impossible . You can look like this too !
Monday 20 February 2012
Letters to && from our creators !
Letter from Ana
Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in you, and I expect the same from you.
In the past you have heard all of your teachers and parents talk about you. You are "so mature", "intelligent", "14 going on 45", and you possess "so much potential". Where has that gotten you, may I ask? Absolutely no where! You are not perfect, you do not try hard enough, further more you waste your time on thinking and talking with friends and drawing! Such acts of indulgence shall not be allowed in the future.
Your friends do not understand you. They are not truthful. In the past, when the insecurity has quietly gnawed away at your mind, and you asked them, "Do I look....fat?" and they answered "Oh no, of course not" you knew they were lying! Only I tell the truth. Your parents, let's not even go there! You know that they love you, and care for you, but part of that is just that they are your parents and are obligated to do so. I shall tell you a secret now: deep down inside themselves, they are disappointed with you. Their daughter, the one with so much potential, has turned into a fat, lazy, and undeserving girl.
But I am about to change all that.
I expect a lot from you. You are not allowed to eat much. It will start slowly:
decreasing of fat intake, reading the nutrition labels, cutting out junk food, fried food, etc. For a while, the exercise will be simple: some running, perhaps some crunches and some situps. Nothing too serious. Perhaps drop a few pounds, take a little off of that fat tub of a stomach. But it won't be long before I tell you that it isn't good enough.
I will expect you to drop your calorie intake and up your exercise. I will push you to the limit. You must take it because you cannot defy me! I am beginning to imbed myself into you. Pretty soon, I am with you always. I am there when you wake up in the morning and run to the scale. The numbers become both friend and enemy, and the frenzied thoughts pray for them to be lower than yesterday, last night, etc. You look into the mirror with dismay. You prod and poke at the fat that is there, and smile when you come across bone. I am there when you figure out the plan for the day: 400 calories, 2 hours exercise. I am the one figuring this out, because by now my thoughts and your thoughts are blurred together as one.
I follow you throughout the day. In school, when your mind wanders I give you something to think about. Recount the calories for the day. It's too much. I fill your mind with thoughts of food, weight, calories, and things that are safe to think about. Because now, I am already inside of you. I am in your head, your heart, and your soul. The hunger pains you pretend not to feel is me, inside of you.
Pretty soon I am telling you not only what to do with food, but what to do ALL of the time. Smile and nod. Present yourself well. Suck in that fat stomach, dammit! God, you are such a fat cow!!!! When mealtimes come around I tell you what to do. I make a plate of lettuce seem like a feast fit for a king. Push the food around. Make it look like you've eaten something. No piece of anything...if you eat, all the control will be broken...do you WANT that?? To revert back to the fat COW you once were?? I force you to stare at magazine models. Those perfect skinned, white teethed, waifish models of perfection staring out at you from those glossy pages. I make you realize that you could never be them. You will always be fat and never will you be as beautiful as they are. When you look in the mirror, I will distort the image. I will show you obesity and hideousness. I will show you a sumo wrestler where in reality there is a starving child. But you must not know this, because if you knew the truth, you might start to eat again and our relationship would come crashing down.
Sometimes you will rebel. Hopefully not often though. You will recognize the small rebellious fiber left in your body and will venture down to the dark kitchen. The cupboard door will slowly open, creaking softly. Your eyes will move over the food that I have kept at a safe distance from you. You will find your hands reaching out, lethargically, like a nightmare, through the darkness to the box of crackers. You shove them in, mechanically, not really tasting but simply relishing in the fact that you are going against me. You reach for another box, then another, then another. Your stomach will become bloated and grotesque, but you will not stop yet. And all the time I am screaming at you to stop, you fat cow, you really have no self control, you are going to get fat.
When it is over you will cling to me again, ask me for advice because you really do not want to get fat. You broke a cardinal rule and ate, and now you want me back. I'll force you into the bathroom, onto your knees, staring into the void of the toilet bowl. Your fingers will be inserted into your throat, and, not without a great deal of pain, your food binge will come up. Over and over this is to be repeated, until you spit up blood and water and you know it is all gone. When you stand up, you will feel dizzy. Don't pass out. Stand up right now. You fat cow you deserve to be in pain!
Maybe the choice of getting rid of the guilt is different. Maybe I chose to make you take laxatives, where you sit on the toilet until the wee hours of the morning, feeling your insides cringe. Or perhaps I just make you hurt yourself, bang your head into the wall until you receive a throbbing headache. Cutting is also effective. I want you to see your blood, to see it fall down your arm, and in that split second you will realize you deserve whatever pain I give you. You are depressed, obsessed, in pain, hurting, reaching out but no one will listen? Who cares?!?!! You are deserving; you brought this upon yourself.
Oh, is this harsh? Do you not want this to happen to you? Am I unfair? I do do things that will help you. I make it possible for you to stop thinking of emotions that cause you stress. Thoughts of anger, sadness, desperation, and lonliness can cease because I take them away and fill your head with the methodic calorie counting. I take away your struggle to fit in with kids your age, the struggle of trying to please everyone as well. Because now, I am your only friend, and I am the only one you need to please.
I have a weak spot. But we must not tell anyone. If you decide to fight back, to reach out to someone and tell them about how I make you live, all hell will break lose. No one must find out, no one can crack this shell that I have covered you with. I have createdyou, this thin, perfect, achieving child. You are mine and mine alone. Without me, you are nothing. So do not fight back. When others comment, ignore them. Take it into stride, forget about them, forget about everyone that tries to take me away. I am your greatest asset, and I intend to keep it that way. Sincerely, Ana
Letter to Ana
Dear Ana,
I offer you my soul, my heart and my bodily functions. I give you all my earthly possessions.
I seek your wisdom, your faith and your feather weight. I pledge to obtain the ability to float, to lower my weight to the single digits, I pledge to stare into space, to fear food, and to see obese images in the mirror. I will worship you and pledge to be a faithful servant until death does us part.
If I cheat on you and procreate with Ronald McDonald, Dave Thomas, the colonel or that cute little dog. I will kneel over my toilet and thrust my fingers deep in my throat and pray for your forgiveness.
Please Ana, don't give up on me. I'm so weak, I know, but only you with your strength inside me will I become a woman worthy of love and respect. I'm begging for you not to give up, I'm pleading with my shallow breathes and my pale skin. I bleed for you, suffer leg pains, headaches and fainting spells. My love for you makes me dizzy and confused I don't know whether I'm coming or going. Men run when they see the love I have for you and never return. But they aren't important to me all thats important is that you love me.
If you stay with me, I will worship you daily, I will run miles a day, come rain, snow, bitter cold or searing heat I will run from the pain and in fright. I will do 1,000 sit ups a day and lie to my family about what I eat and how I feel. I will stop weeping when I feel your warm arms embrace my shivering body. I will numb the hunger pains with razor blades and your strength.
Today, I renew our friendship and resolve to be faithful to you year long, life long. I begin each year with a 3 day fast in honor of you. If you give me the strength to fade away I will love you and worship you forever.
When I'm finally faded to nothing, when you've given me the gift of ending this torturous life. I will float on to the next world and be thin and beautiful payment for my undying love for you in this world.
I ask only one more thing you, please Ana, remove me from this hell, from this world ASAP. Please take away this hatred for my pain and allow me to be free and light.
Love Always, Worthless One
Letter from Mia
Dear Partner,
How are you? I thought I'd take a few minutes to introduce myself. I'm known by some as bulimia nervosa, but seeing how we'll become so close, you can just call me Mia. That's what my best friends call me. My loyal friends. Over time, you will become my loyal friend too. Sometimes you might feel more of a servant, but then you will think of all I do for you and remember that I am your only true friend. You know how everyone around you, all those girls, seem like they have it so easy, I hate that! And I hate for you to feel less, which is why from now on, I will provide you with encouragement, and inspiration to achieve what you thought you never could. Prove all the nasty comments wrong. Also, I cannot spend my life with someone not worthy...so you will have to prove yourself to me. I'll try to hang out with you as much as possible, but nobody will know. Only you will know when I'm around. You will know when you eat something, you will know when you see that chocolate cake on the counter, because I will in the back of your mind telling you things. Sometimes I will tell you not to eat it, and you will listen. Other times, you will disobey me and devour the entire cake. Then I will really make you feel guilty. You should have followed my orders! Now go and throw that cake up you FAT COW! How could you do that to yourself? You will take my comments to heart, and go into the bathroom, turn on the faucet, and force yourself to vomit. You will spend hours vomiting at times. Your face will be red, snot will pour, your eyes will be bloodshot, you jaw will hurt of swollen glands...serves you right! If you want to be my friend and get the full effect of what I can give you, you must follow my orders. You will soon learn that I am in control. Even when you don't do as I say, you can still hear me, screaming at you, telling you to work harder, telling you to take diet pills, telling you how fat you are, telling you what those people across the room are really whispering about. I am sure after a while of this, you will grow to hate me, but you will love me even more. You will love me so much you won't tell anyone about me. If you do, I risk being destroyed, and you don't want that do you? You will have invested so much of your time in me, that you will no longer have anyone else. You have no choice, me or complete solitude. If I'm gone, fat and cellulite will take my place. Which would you rather have? So you must not tell anyone about me. Even if you did, some people would likey not believe you and worse, think you are out for the attention. So hold your head high and look confident. With my help, you can look just as great as your favorite models and actresses. You can look better. I have to go now, but think of me often. Think of me all the time! I am the only one who TRULY wants you to feel loved. Remember that.
*******
found from : http://proanalifestyle.blogspot.com/2007/07/letter-fromto-ana.html
&& http://proanalifestyle.blogspot.com/2007/07/letter-from-mia.html
Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in you, and I expect the same from you.
In the past you have heard all of your teachers and parents talk about you. You are "so mature", "intelligent", "14 going on 45", and you possess "so much potential". Where has that gotten you, may I ask? Absolutely no where! You are not perfect, you do not try hard enough, further more you waste your time on thinking and talking with friends and drawing! Such acts of indulgence shall not be allowed in the future.
Your friends do not understand you. They are not truthful. In the past, when the insecurity has quietly gnawed away at your mind, and you asked them, "Do I look....fat?" and they answered "Oh no, of course not" you knew they were lying! Only I tell the truth. Your parents, let's not even go there! You know that they love you, and care for you, but part of that is just that they are your parents and are obligated to do so. I shall tell you a secret now: deep down inside themselves, they are disappointed with you. Their daughter, the one with so much potential, has turned into a fat, lazy, and undeserving girl.
But I am about to change all that.
I expect a lot from you. You are not allowed to eat much. It will start slowly:
decreasing of fat intake, reading the nutrition labels, cutting out junk food, fried food, etc. For a while, the exercise will be simple: some running, perhaps some crunches and some situps. Nothing too serious. Perhaps drop a few pounds, take a little off of that fat tub of a stomach. But it won't be long before I tell you that it isn't good enough.
I will expect you to drop your calorie intake and up your exercise. I will push you to the limit. You must take it because you cannot defy me! I am beginning to imbed myself into you. Pretty soon, I am with you always. I am there when you wake up in the morning and run to the scale. The numbers become both friend and enemy, and the frenzied thoughts pray for them to be lower than yesterday, last night, etc. You look into the mirror with dismay. You prod and poke at the fat that is there, and smile when you come across bone. I am there when you figure out the plan for the day: 400 calories, 2 hours exercise. I am the one figuring this out, because by now my thoughts and your thoughts are blurred together as one.
I follow you throughout the day. In school, when your mind wanders I give you something to think about. Recount the calories for the day. It's too much. I fill your mind with thoughts of food, weight, calories, and things that are safe to think about. Because now, I am already inside of you. I am in your head, your heart, and your soul. The hunger pains you pretend not to feel is me, inside of you.
Pretty soon I am telling you not only what to do with food, but what to do ALL of the time. Smile and nod. Present yourself well. Suck in that fat stomach, dammit! God, you are such a fat cow!!!! When mealtimes come around I tell you what to do. I make a plate of lettuce seem like a feast fit for a king. Push the food around. Make it look like you've eaten something. No piece of anything...if you eat, all the control will be broken...do you WANT that?? To revert back to the fat COW you once were?? I force you to stare at magazine models. Those perfect skinned, white teethed, waifish models of perfection staring out at you from those glossy pages. I make you realize that you could never be them. You will always be fat and never will you be as beautiful as they are. When you look in the mirror, I will distort the image. I will show you obesity and hideousness. I will show you a sumo wrestler where in reality there is a starving child. But you must not know this, because if you knew the truth, you might start to eat again and our relationship would come crashing down.
Sometimes you will rebel. Hopefully not often though. You will recognize the small rebellious fiber left in your body and will venture down to the dark kitchen. The cupboard door will slowly open, creaking softly. Your eyes will move over the food that I have kept at a safe distance from you. You will find your hands reaching out, lethargically, like a nightmare, through the darkness to the box of crackers. You shove them in, mechanically, not really tasting but simply relishing in the fact that you are going against me. You reach for another box, then another, then another. Your stomach will become bloated and grotesque, but you will not stop yet. And all the time I am screaming at you to stop, you fat cow, you really have no self control, you are going to get fat.
When it is over you will cling to me again, ask me for advice because you really do not want to get fat. You broke a cardinal rule and ate, and now you want me back. I'll force you into the bathroom, onto your knees, staring into the void of the toilet bowl. Your fingers will be inserted into your throat, and, not without a great deal of pain, your food binge will come up. Over and over this is to be repeated, until you spit up blood and water and you know it is all gone. When you stand up, you will feel dizzy. Don't pass out. Stand up right now. You fat cow you deserve to be in pain!
Maybe the choice of getting rid of the guilt is different. Maybe I chose to make you take laxatives, where you sit on the toilet until the wee hours of the morning, feeling your insides cringe. Or perhaps I just make you hurt yourself, bang your head into the wall until you receive a throbbing headache. Cutting is also effective. I want you to see your blood, to see it fall down your arm, and in that split second you will realize you deserve whatever pain I give you. You are depressed, obsessed, in pain, hurting, reaching out but no one will listen? Who cares?!?!! You are deserving; you brought this upon yourself.
Oh, is this harsh? Do you not want this to happen to you? Am I unfair? I do do things that will help you. I make it possible for you to stop thinking of emotions that cause you stress. Thoughts of anger, sadness, desperation, and lonliness can cease because I take them away and fill your head with the methodic calorie counting. I take away your struggle to fit in with kids your age, the struggle of trying to please everyone as well. Because now, I am your only friend, and I am the only one you need to please.
I have a weak spot. But we must not tell anyone. If you decide to fight back, to reach out to someone and tell them about how I make you live, all hell will break lose. No one must find out, no one can crack this shell that I have covered you with. I have createdyou, this thin, perfect, achieving child. You are mine and mine alone. Without me, you are nothing. So do not fight back. When others comment, ignore them. Take it into stride, forget about them, forget about everyone that tries to take me away. I am your greatest asset, and I intend to keep it that way. Sincerely, Ana
Letter to Ana
Dear Ana,
I offer you my soul, my heart and my bodily functions. I give you all my earthly possessions.
I seek your wisdom, your faith and your feather weight. I pledge to obtain the ability to float, to lower my weight to the single digits, I pledge to stare into space, to fear food, and to see obese images in the mirror. I will worship you and pledge to be a faithful servant until death does us part.
If I cheat on you and procreate with Ronald McDonald, Dave Thomas, the colonel or that cute little dog. I will kneel over my toilet and thrust my fingers deep in my throat and pray for your forgiveness.
Please Ana, don't give up on me. I'm so weak, I know, but only you with your strength inside me will I become a woman worthy of love and respect. I'm begging for you not to give up, I'm pleading with my shallow breathes and my pale skin. I bleed for you, suffer leg pains, headaches and fainting spells. My love for you makes me dizzy and confused I don't know whether I'm coming or going. Men run when they see the love I have for you and never return. But they aren't important to me all thats important is that you love me.
If you stay with me, I will worship you daily, I will run miles a day, come rain, snow, bitter cold or searing heat I will run from the pain and in fright. I will do 1,000 sit ups a day and lie to my family about what I eat and how I feel. I will stop weeping when I feel your warm arms embrace my shivering body. I will numb the hunger pains with razor blades and your strength.
Today, I renew our friendship and resolve to be faithful to you year long, life long. I begin each year with a 3 day fast in honor of you. If you give me the strength to fade away I will love you and worship you forever.
When I'm finally faded to nothing, when you've given me the gift of ending this torturous life. I will float on to the next world and be thin and beautiful payment for my undying love for you in this world.
I ask only one more thing you, please Ana, remove me from this hell, from this world ASAP. Please take away this hatred for my pain and allow me to be free and light.
Love Always, Worthless One
Letter from Mia
Dear Partner,
How are you? I thought I'd take a few minutes to introduce myself. I'm known by some as bulimia nervosa, but seeing how we'll become so close, you can just call me Mia. That's what my best friends call me. My loyal friends. Over time, you will become my loyal friend too. Sometimes you might feel more of a servant, but then you will think of all I do for you and remember that I am your only true friend. You know how everyone around you, all those girls, seem like they have it so easy, I hate that! And I hate for you to feel less, which is why from now on, I will provide you with encouragement, and inspiration to achieve what you thought you never could. Prove all the nasty comments wrong. Also, I cannot spend my life with someone not worthy...so you will have to prove yourself to me. I'll try to hang out with you as much as possible, but nobody will know. Only you will know when I'm around. You will know when you eat something, you will know when you see that chocolate cake on the counter, because I will in the back of your mind telling you things. Sometimes I will tell you not to eat it, and you will listen. Other times, you will disobey me and devour the entire cake. Then I will really make you feel guilty. You should have followed my orders! Now go and throw that cake up you FAT COW! How could you do that to yourself? You will take my comments to heart, and go into the bathroom, turn on the faucet, and force yourself to vomit. You will spend hours vomiting at times. Your face will be red, snot will pour, your eyes will be bloodshot, you jaw will hurt of swollen glands...serves you right! If you want to be my friend and get the full effect of what I can give you, you must follow my orders. You will soon learn that I am in control. Even when you don't do as I say, you can still hear me, screaming at you, telling you to work harder, telling you to take diet pills, telling you how fat you are, telling you what those people across the room are really whispering about. I am sure after a while of this, you will grow to hate me, but you will love me even more. You will love me so much you won't tell anyone about me. If you do, I risk being destroyed, and you don't want that do you? You will have invested so much of your time in me, that you will no longer have anyone else. You have no choice, me or complete solitude. If I'm gone, fat and cellulite will take my place. Which would you rather have? So you must not tell anyone about me. Even if you did, some people would likey not believe you and worse, think you are out for the attention. So hold your head high and look confident. With my help, you can look just as great as your favorite models and actresses. You can look better. I have to go now, but think of me often. Think of me all the time! I am the only one who TRULY wants you to feel loved. Remember that.
*******
found from : http://proanalifestyle.blogspot.com/2007/07/letter-fromto-ana.html
&& http://proanalifestyle.blogspot.com/2007/07/letter-from-mia.html
Sunday 19 February 2012
More Thinspiration !
It isn't just Ana (a.k.a. anorexia - an emotional disorder characterized by an obsessive desire to lose weight by refusing to eat) contorlling us . Mia (a.k.a. bulimia - an emotional disorder in which bouts of extreme overeating are followed by depression and self-induced vomiting , purging , or fasting . ) controls us too !
Aim to be the most thin you that you can be !
Aim to be the most thin you that you can be !
Do you want to end up like this ?
It's normal to want to be thin , so keep listening to Ana && Mia ! Maybe you can look like this someday :
Saturday 18 February 2012
Friday 17 February 2012
The Braclet Project !
The Red Bracelet project is all about IFOF .
IFOF is a term that means "identification friend or foe" most commonly used in the aircraft industry . We now have a system of our own .
The bracelet project exists so that pro-ana girls can recognize each other. You wear a red beaded braclet on your right wrist .
The biggest clue is the presence of a dragonfly charm; you can buy the bracelet, or you can make it yourself. Many pro-ana girls add it so that they don't mix up pro-ana's with someone who just happens to be wearing a red beaded braclet .
It's not the best idea to just asume that if someone is wearing a braclet they are pro-ana , so anytime you see someone you think may be wearing one of these bracelets, capture their eye contact and point to your bracelet . If they return the same point to theirs ... then they are ED friendly. If not, then its just someone who happens to be wearing one .
It doesn't matter what the braclet looks like , as long as it is red and beaded . Here are some examples :
Also , if you are pro-mia you wear a blue beaded braclet on your left wrist .
I find a lot of girls are waiting to wear their bracelet until they think they're worth it...I ask you NOT to do the same! It's made to show you're an ED girl, not to show you're underweight already. If we all wear our bracelets, we can recognize each other, help and support each other! So please, don't wait!
IFOF is a term that means "identification friend or foe" most commonly used in the aircraft industry . We now have a system of our own .
The bracelet project exists so that pro-ana girls can recognize each other. You wear a red beaded braclet on your right wrist .
The biggest clue is the presence of a dragonfly charm; you can buy the bracelet, or you can make it yourself. Many pro-ana girls add it so that they don't mix up pro-ana's with someone who just happens to be wearing a red beaded braclet .
It's not the best idea to just asume that if someone is wearing a braclet they are pro-ana , so anytime you see someone you think may be wearing one of these bracelets, capture their eye contact and point to your bracelet . If they return the same point to theirs ... then they are ED friendly. If not, then its just someone who happens to be wearing one .
It doesn't matter what the braclet looks like , as long as it is red and beaded . Here are some examples :
Thursday 16 February 2012
ABCD (Ana Boot Camp Diet) !
Ana Boot Camp
The Ana Boot Camp is a 50-day near starvation diet of uncertain origins that is passed around on internet forums.
Background
The Ana Boot Camp is an internet diet passed around on forums devoted to pro anaWhat You Eat
The Ana Boot Camp Diet is a simple 50-day schedule listing the number of calories that the dieter is advised to eat. Calorie levels range from zero to 500 calories (one day only lists 800 calories), in an apparently random pattern.| Week | Mon | Tues | Wed | Thurs | Fri | Sat | Sun |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Week 1 | 500 | 500 | 300 | 400 | 100 | 200 | 300 |
| Week 2 | 400 | 500 | Fast | 150 | 200 | 400 | 350 |
| Week 3 | 250 | 200 | Fast | 200 | 100 | Fast | 300 |
| Week 4 | 250 | 200 | 150 | 100 | 50 | 100 | 200 |
| Week 5 | 200 | 300 | 800 | Fast | 250 | 350 | 450 |
| Week 6 | Fast | 500 | 450 | 400 | 350 | 300 | 250 |
| Week 7 | 200 | 200 | 250 | 200 | 300 | 200 | 150 |
| Week 8 | Fast | Slowly return to a normal diet | |||||
Dangers
Ana Boot Camp supplies very few calories. The Ana Boot Camp is 50 days long, making the Ana Boot Camp diet is potentially extremely dangerous.The Diet's Theory
The diet is based on the concept of calorie shifting, a dieting theory born from the idea that when you reduce your food intake suddenly, your body shifts into "starvation mode," an evolutionary defense mechanism in which your body's metabolism becomes more efficient in order to cope with an expected shortage of food. By varying the number of calories each day you presumably trick the body into not realizing that it is being confronted with a shortage of food, thus preventing starvation mode.(source : http://dietchoices.com/diet-plans/ana-boot-camp-abc-diet/ )
Wednesday 15 February 2012
Ana's Creed .
I believe in control , the only force mighty enough to bring order in the chaos that is my world .
I believe that I am the most vile , worthless an useless person ever have to existed on this planet , and that I am totally onworthy of anyone's time and attention .
I believe in oughts , musts and shoulds , as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behaviour .
I believe in perfection and strive to attain it .
I believe in salvation trough starvation .
I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of God , and memorise then accordingly .
I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily succeses and failures .
I believe in hell , cause sometimes I think I live in it .
I believe in a holy black and withe world , the losing of weight, recrimination for sins , the alonegation of the body and a life ever fasting .
I believe that I am the most vile , worthless an useless person ever have to existed on this planet , and that I am totally onworthy of anyone's time and attention .
I believe in oughts , musts and shoulds , as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behaviour .
I believe in perfection and strive to attain it .
I believe in salvation trough starvation .
I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of God , and memorise then accordingly .
I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily succeses and failures .
I believe in hell , cause sometimes I think I live in it .
I believe in a holy black and withe world , the losing of weight, recrimination for sins , the alonegation of the body and a life ever fasting .
Tuesday 14 February 2012
thinspiration !
In just five months this girl went from 150lbs to 116lbs !
july - 150lbs
september - 130lbs
october - 122lbs
november - 116lbs
that's a total of 34 lbs , only losing 6.8lbs a month . see if you can lose more than her !
september - 130lbs
october - 122lbs
november - 116lbs
that's a total of 34 lbs , only losing 6.8lbs a month . see if you can lose more than her !
Monday 13 February 2012
Thin Commandments !
1) If you aren't
thin you aren't attractive .
2) Being thin is more important than being healthy .
3) You must buy clothes , style your hair , take laxatives , starve yourself , do anything to make yourself look thinner .
4) You shall not eat without feeling guilty .
5) You shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwards.
6) You shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
7) What the scale says is the most important thing.
8) Losing weight is good/gaining weight is bad.
9) You can never be too thin.
10) Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success.
2) Being thin is more important than being healthy .
3) You must buy clothes , style your hair , take laxatives , starve yourself , do anything to make yourself look thinner .
4) You shall not eat without feeling guilty .
5) You shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwards.
6) You shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
7) What the scale says is the most important thing.
8) Losing weight is good/gaining weight is bad.
9) You can never be too thin.
10) Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success.
Sunday 12 February 2012
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